Note from my mother

Hi Shea,

I think this article seemed to be particularly well-documented for a Wikipedia entry. I was heartened to see that of the complications listed, you've managed to dodge all the negatives listed there due to your strength of will, engagement with your treatment, and lifestyle choices. I'm so proud of how you handle this "beast."

Can't wait to see you later this week. Don't forget ot give me some concrete examples of toys for Tyler.

Love you,"
Mom

Original Message from myself:



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder

Hey Mom,

Please click on the link above to read some information from Wikipedia, the free online encyclopedia.

Definition from Wikipedia of Schizoaffective Disorder

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder

Please read the above link as it is quite informative.

The New Year, A New Life for My Family and Me

As the new decade dawns, those with mental illness are called to rise up and try to help themselves again for the new year and new decade.

I, for one, am going to further my education by pursuing my MBA in Finance and trying to further my career and job prospects for the future. I also resolve to keep my friends and family close and in touch with me whenever there is a problem with my schizophrenia.

SO BE IT! 2010, here we come!

Turning over a new leaf

As I round the corner on some of my issues from the past and look ahead into the future, it's looking more and more like there is a light at the end of the tunnel now more than ever. After all, I have weathered the storm, and have done it the right way, by sticking with my program of medication, sleep, good media, and no drugs or drinking.

That is why I believe that now is the time to further myself, not push myself too much, but to further my education while looking into the bright future with my beautiful little family.

What a beautiful life!

Feeling much better the last two days

Such is the nature of my experience with the disorder of schizophrenia, one day I am feeling at my lowest and the next two days, I'm back up and running on all cylinders.

I always remember what a wise man once said when I am going through a tough time. "This too shall pass."

Losing it at the fair

So we packed the car up and had what I thought was going to be a good time at the County Fair last night. It was my wife, my son and I; along with my father and his girl friend. There were rides, plenty to eat (although we had eaten home-made quesadillas before we left), as well as activities for children of all ages.

All was going along well, until all of the stimuli at the fair began to take its toll on my psyche. From that point until we left, which was approximately 1.5 hours, I was actively psychotic and paranoid. At this point going forward, with all of the still-incoming stimuli, all of the people as well as the responsibility of a young child, I felt like a leper's leper.

If I did indeed have lepresy, which was known all thoughout the dark ages as a disease highly stigmatized, at least people would stay away from me. However, since I was in my own personal hell, unknown to the wandering throngs of people around you, the end result is feeling somewhat less than a leper, or as they say, a leper's leper.

Even those whom I call my extended family had no sensibility for the illness in which I was engulfed. My wife was my shoulder to lay my head on, though, coaxing me to smile through the pain that she could see on my face. When a stranger made a joke that normally would have been funny, I reacted as someone in the throws of mental illness, causing him to back off slowly and awkwardly, as if he had witnessed an alien disguised as a human being at the county fair.

My wife has always been my hero, always there to help me through. Not that she always understands my inner struggle, but that she will always be there for me to lend a hand when her partner is in need.

The Honeymoon is Now!

I am now in the period of my illness that I call, the Honeymoon period. That is, the period in which I have the least symptoms historically. After all, I have had schizophrenia for 10 years now and I have learned an awful lot about my specific case in that time frame.

For instance, every 4 years, I have an episode, which I call the cyclical component of my illness. Then, every spring and summer, I have more symptoms, and fewer in the fall and winter time.